Clarification

after rereading my post (something i tend not to do even when writing a paper) and reading the comments field, i have to admit that it looks as if i am pissed off at nin, which i am not; that was a damn good show and well worth the money if you include queens of the stone age and death from above 1979. fifty five dollars for the set nin alone played was a bit excessive, but in combination with qotsa and death from above 1979, its well worth the money. i am lucky that i saw them while the openers were playing with them. it doesnt look like they are touring together however, because qotsa is playing at the house of blues in myrtle beach this wednesday night, meaning they are headlining and nin is probably somewhere else. i wonder how much tickets are elsewhere. i bet the tickets price will change based on who is playing with them. its a shitty thing, in my opinion, to charge people fiftyfive dollars for an hour and a half. i mean, i even disapprove of other bands doing that. u2 for example are charging between sixty five and a hundred and sixtyfive dollars a ticket at the same venue in a month. while yes, they have that much material, not all of it is good, and they probably will only play maybe two or two and a half hours, like when i saw them in 2000. its a shitty thing to do and i dislike it when bands think they can overprice their tickets cos they think theyre hotshit or something. its the same strategy, different medium, as what labels do to prices for cds. would anyone pay, say, 15$ for a cd that is maybe thirtyfive minutes long? keep in mind, an album, to be called an album rather than an ep, has to fufill two modern requirements: a) have over eight tracks and b) be longer than thirty minutes. i know i wouldnt; id help myself to their music via ben. its the same thing.
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Nine Inch Nails and Queens of The Stone Age

man thursday was fucking awesome and im just writing about it now. the opener for these two awesome bands was a band that i will have to steal from in the futuren (reading this ben?) called death from above 1979. just a drummer who sings and a bass player that also plays synth. fucking awesome. anyway, while yes, nin was good, i actually liked qotsa's set better, because they just did what they did and heckled back at a couple of people. reznor kept saying thank you after every song, as if each one were the last they were playing. also, i dont think i got fiftyfive dollars worth of music from nin, since they were theoretically who i was paying the ticket for, and qotsa and dfa1979 are just added surprises. i mean, fiftyfive dollars for an hour and a half worth of music? i payed twenty for decemberists and they played for 2 hours. if i am paying over, say tewnty dollars, then i would like it if i got more than two firtyfive minute sets, since i can see a band in a bar somewhere for a ten dollar cover charge and just stay all night. i mean, it seems as if reznor is getting more and more greedy as time goes on: demanding more money for tickets on his last tour, complaining cos his album was leaked onto the internet ( a) its not that great of an album, cos i wouldnt spend fifteen on it, and b) everyone knows that you make money on touring and merch sales, not albums), playing for around an hour and a half? i mean, most of the music was prerecorded and the band was playing over tapes and synth triggers. im sure all his energy was not spent on singing and throwning mic stands around and slinging water everywhere. come on guys. you need to stop being such pussies and play for longer. also, if youre gonna break your shit after the show to let the audience know there will be no encore, at least BREAK the shit. slinging a guitar across stage and reeling it back in to throw at the drumset wont break a guitar, it might knocj a tuning peg off, or make it go outta tune. throwing it twenty feet in the air wont make it unplayable, especially since i know it was a custom shop and therefore probably reinforced. if youre gonna break shit, then at least break shit. i didnt see anything shatter, break apart, or otherwise look as if it were unplayable, at least from my seats (twenty-thirty feet from stage, maybe forty at the most).
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Mmm...

know what feels great after a night of drinking heavily? taking a shower. it feels great to wash the grease out of your hair, the smoke out of your hair, and the drink from your pores. i mean, it just feels so fucking great that it makes me wanna start drinking all the time so that i can wash that shit out, cos it feels like a total renewal of self when you do it. also, i apparently love to smoke cigarettes when i am drunk. i mean i wasnt sloppy drunk or anything last night, but i wouldnt have been able to drive. i was still dancing in time with the music, booty-dancing with random people, having a good time and whatnot. i also found out that walking up to someone and saying "sex?" while wiggling my hips back and forth is not a successful way to have any sex. it is successful in making people laugh, then question with "wait, your serious?", so its good for an icebreaker, but other than that, completely useless. mmm...what did i have last night? half of the soco, a couple of shots of kahlua, some vodka, half a bottle of wine, and maybe three or four cloves? man if i were catholic id have some confessing to do, but thank god im not catholic...
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Gloves Would Be Nice...

so yeah, my hands get all wrinkly, but not like an oversaturated wrinkly, like a crackly wrinkly. i think the moisture in my hands freezes at higher temperatures, causing my hands to hurt when i get up and go out early in the mornings like on tuesday and thursday. also i think ive been writing and worrying too much about going crazy. i mean, if i am going crazy, i should just sit back and let it happen, cos really, theres not too much i can do about it, and if i were going crazy, then i wouldnt notice it anyway. i think what is actually happening is im getting stressed out, cos ive never really been that stressed out before. mmm sleep...i need sleep. i need to be awake tonite for nine inch nails and queens of the stone age. two of my favorite bands, coming together for the first time (in front of me). and i just killed three powdered donuts. killed them like a true cop. i sacrificed them to the demon of my belly. i call him rumbly, cos theres a rumbly in my tumbly. also milk is good when eating things so sugary as donuts. mmm come to me my precious precious sleep...
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Circus of Crazy!!

thanks to both leah and kathleen, i love the dresden dolls. piano player that sings, and a robotic drummer equals a creation of shit that i like. they make me feel as if i were dancing in a circus of crazy. they are fucking awesome, and i must steal them. also shit that i need to steal from ben: sons and daughters, st. germain, the unicorns, her majesty the decemberists, neutral milk hotel, and some otehr things that ben mandates that i listen to for the betterment of my soul. also i finished the japanese paper today, meaning i turned it in, meaning that i will skip class tomorrow. hooray! skipping classes that im paying for! also i get to see the majesty that is queens of the stone age, as well as his highness, trent reznor, god of industrial goth. true al jourgensun probably started industrial goth, but ministry, while they are awesome, are nothing compared to nin. combined with qotsa. speaking of goth, i must pick up tickets to see HIM, as well as skindred. mmm almost fo'ty dolla's for tickets. two for laura and brittany (1 1/2) and one for me (1 1/2). man i wish i were in a touring band. thats almost seventy five dollars to split from three people alone. shit thats the mad moneys. also faye in questionable content pisses me off. shes a sucker bitch and dora is soo much more awesome. but then again, i have an unidentifiable love for goth music and goth girls. the two just seem to attract me, and i dont know why...
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Mmm...The Crazies Are Good...

i feel like i am going crazy, slowly. i forget things that happen and remember things that didnt...i guess its starting to look like a mental institution for me. also depression sucks...yeah...maybe its just a change in barometric pressure or something like that in the air. also, i think i am going to turn in the shittiest paper ever to steen, cos it sure isnt the best paper ive written...the thing that consoles me, though, is the sound of sweet sweet daiko drums that i burned from leah...yes...
also things suck on this end...how about you?!
man i should burn this blog...its turning more and more into one of those emo bullshit blogs where people do nothing but complain...but if all i am feeling is depressed, then i guess that shouldnt count against it...im just not the type of person to be happy all the time...or nonsensical and funny, like ben for instance...
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Halloween! My Favorite Time of Year...

The Sensual Vampire


What type of vampire are you?
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i dont really agree but who am i to argue...
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I Feel As If I Were Going Crazy...

when i sleep now, i tend to sleep with my feet under the covers, rather than exposed to the open air, despite my love of cold. this is due to the feeling that "nighthings" sit on the end of my bed and run their little paws up and down my legs as i sleep, unknowingly having my dreams stolen. see? crazy talk.
also i feel that something bad is going to happen in the next couple of days...or weeks...
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It's Like Wool...

so i was shaving with the beard trimmer, cos i forgot to bring my razor back, and i noticed after i trimmed the first little shave (or whatever you wanna call it), that it looked as if i were...shearing a sheep. and the hair stayed clumped together as i buzzed through the chunks of the reddish hair. it looked as though i were shearing a red sheep. i just thought that this is amazingly interesting, that shaving could be so much like harvesting air for warmth. i wonder if people make human hair clothes and jackets and coats and such? theres probably a group of people somewhere, outside the rejects for hair club for men, that buy chunks of human hair, not for making wigs, but for making clothes. there has to be because the human race is too fucked up for there to not be someone out there that does this sort of thing in order to save money/be trendy/whatever the fuck they think theyre doing, and i have to say i might applaud them for it...
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Mmm...Quizzez Good...

Your Band Name is:

The Bionic Masochists

Band Name Generator

Maroon 5 Shares Your Taste in Music

See their whole playlist here (iTunes required)

Which Musician (or Group) Shares Your Taste in Music?

i hate these motherfuckers too, thats the really ironic bit...

You Are a Glam Rocker!

You put the "show" in rock show with your larger than life self. No doubt, you are all about making good music... But what really gets you going is having an over the top show. Glitter, costumes, and wild hair are your thing - with some rock thrown in!

What Kind of Rocker Are You?

to quote...NANI-FUCK?! thats actually kinda awesome, tho...

You Should Learn Spanish

For you, learning a language is about career advancement and communication. Knowing Spanish will bring you tons of possiblities for jobs and travel. Bárbaro!

What Language Should You Learn?

thanks motherfucker...i know spanish...fuck...

Your Japanese Name Is...

Ringo Saito

What's your Japanese Name?

sugokuawesomedesu...

Your Power Color Is Indigo

At Your Highest: You are on a fast track to success - and others believe in you. At Your Lowest: You require a lot of attention and praise. In Love: You see people as how you want them to be, not as how they are. How You're Attractive: You're dramatic flair makes others see you as mysterious and romantic. Your Eternal Question: "Does This Work Into My Future Plans?"

What's Your Power Color?

...?...

Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent. Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art. You would make an excellent: Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.

What's Your Ideal Career?

awesome...

What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational. You are also giving and kind - a great friend. You are easy going and trusting. However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.

What Does Your Sleeping Position Say About You?

what?...

You are Agonistic

You're not sure if God exists, and you don't care. For you, there's no true way to figure out the divine. You rather focus on what you can control - your own life. And you tend to resent when others "sell" religion to you.

What's Your Religious Philosophy?

actually, pretty true...

You Failed the US Citizenship Test

Oops, you only got 6 out of 10 right!

Could You Pass the US Citizenship Test?

hilarious!...

You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead... But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself. You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place. You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!

How Machiavellian Are You?

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is. You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think. Your friends tend to be a as quirky as you are - which is saying a lot! Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How Do You Live Your Life?

You Are Balanced - Believer - Powerful

You feel your life is controlled both externally and internally. You have a good sense of what you can control and what you should let go. Depending on the situation, you sometimes try to exert more control. Other times, you accept things for what they are and go with the flow. You are a true believer in luck, fate, and karma. You believe that life is a game of chance - not a game of skill. You either consider yourself very unlucky or very lucky. No matter what, you don't feel like you can change the hand you were dealt. When it comes to who's in charge, it's you. Life is a kingdom, and you're the grand ruler. You don't care much about what others think. But they better care what you think!

The Three Dimension Luck and Power Test

hmmm...

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Brittany's Quizz

take shuffle, use lyrics to answer questions...dig?
Q: What do You think of me, my iTunes?
A:audioslave. heaven's dead. "Heaven's dead, when you get sad, so lets fly, out of time"
thanks iTunes.

Q: Will I have a happy life?
A:jimi hendrix experience.highway chile. "his guitar slung across his back, his dusty boots like his cadillac."
i will play music and travel fro a happy life? sounds good to me...

Q: What do my friends really think of me?
A:led zeppelin. the rover. "Oh how I wonder, oh how I worry and I would dearly like to know
I’ve all this wonder of earthly plunder will it leave us anything to show"
dont really know what this means...

Q: Do people secretly lust after me?
A:limp bizkit. boiler. "Looks like imma do everything myself,Maybe I could use some help,But hell, if you want somethin’ done right? You got to do it yourself."
mmm, i think this means i masturbate a lot...

Q: How can I make myself happy?
A:jimi hendrix experience. crosstown traffic. "You jump in front of my car when you,You know all the time that, Ninty miles an hour, girl, is the speed I drive, You tell me it’s alright, you don’t mind a little pain, You say you just want me to take you for a ride"
drive fast, pick up women, have mad monkey sex with them...okay, sounds good ta me...

Q: What should I do with my life?
A: franz ferdinand. cheating on you. "I'm cheating on you, yeah, I'm cheating on you, yeah, I'm cheating on you, yeah, You're cheating on me"
cheat on people before or during their action of cheating on me? hmmm...

Q: Why must life be so full of pain?
A:bruce springsteen. the fuse. "Trees on fire with the first fall's frost, Long black line in front of Holy Cross, Blood moon risin' in a sky of black dust,Tell me baby who do you trust?"
there is some happiness in misery?

Q: How can I maximize my pleasure during sex?
A:queen. bicycle. "bicycle! bicycle! bicycle! i want to ride my bicycle! i want to ride my bike, i want to ride my bicycle! i want to ride it where i like..."
be less concerned with peoples opinions and also be more active or athletic/ or kinky...?

Q: Will I ever have children?
A:green day. she's a rebel. "shes a rebel, shes a saint, shes the salt of the earth and shes dangerous"
....great...

Q: Will I die happy?
A:green day. wake me up when september ends. "summer has come and past, the innocent can never last, wake me up when september ends"
ill die when im in my midlife stage? i dont know what this means...

Q: Can you give me some advice?
A:outkast. love in war. "Let's kiss, not fight,Try to do whats right tonight,Make love, not war,What the hell are we living for?"
i like this advice!

Q: Do you know where your children are?
A:deep purple. smoke on the water. "smoke on the water, fire in the sky"
my kids are setting shit on fire, or they are pillaging like pirates or vikings? cool, cool, i wish i could join them...

Q: What do you think happiness is?
A:robin williams. i could turn this place into chicken tikka."now that india has the bomb i could turn this place into chicken tikka!"
blowing shit up?

Q: What's your favourite fetish?
A:jimi hendrix. torture me honey. instrumental
so bandage and sado-masochism? well i would like to try it...i havent yet, so maybe...

by the way this is my brothers computer at home, so my music is what is in the files i set aside for myself, but it is in no way representative of what is possible. i might try again...
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If You Want A Way Out...

yeah so i have decided that it would definitely be a bad idea for me to try cocaine, meth, ice or any form of speed or methamphetamine. i dont like feeling like im tired, cos when im awake, i like to be awake and doing something. in fact i hate the feeling of going to sleep, the part between waking conscious and sleep. therefore, if i get started on something that keeps me up for large portions of the day and lets me put off sleep, i would get addicted faster than i would get addicted to, say for instance, heroin. not that ive ever tried either, but heroin doesnt hold a great deal of fascination with me, while something that would keep me awake does. i would like to experiment with everything, but im too much of a pussy for that kind of shit. maybe its just the kind of thing that i spend too much time thinking about, but i often worry about becoming a fucking alcoholic or something. i realised that i am not addicted to other things, like turning tareq down when offered stuff, but i do not and cannot seem to ever turn down free liquor when its available. i mean i cant even really turn down free beer when im with people that im comfortable with and maybe eating something that goes well with the beer in question. its just a thing that tugs at me in the back of my mind whenever i drink or anything and i just purge it from my consciousness when im with people, cos how fucking rude is that to turn down something that someone is giving you? but how dangerous is that to accept from them at the same time?
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Well, I Jumped on A Bandwagon...

yes, yes, i joined facebook. though i am vehemently opposed to things that popular people do, other than masturbation, fucking, and drinking, i figured it would be a good way to keep in contact with people from both high school and college. i do love talking ta people. it will also help me keep in touch with college friends over long breaks when i am not here in atl.
also animal 13 is the coolest motherfucking band ive ever hung out with. i got the drummer's number and me and some friends have been invited to a halloween party with them in l5p. it should be the awesome-motherfucking-shiznit. i feel so loved. people actually added me and let me add them to my friends list, and i just assumed that everyone from high school, leaving out a few, hated me.
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Soo....

11/04 CKY me and geeze and ben. awesome...i didnt expect ben to like CKY, but thats awesome. they probly wont destroy shit like the decemberists, but 'twill be awesome anyways. oh yeah and one more thing. i fucking hate augustine. augustinian philosophies are one of the reason we have stupid fuckheads trying to change the way our government is run. here are the political qualifications of augustine.
1. a republic, successfully installed, is one that is established as a city of god, filled with kharitos (sp?), or charity
2. rome was not a republic because they did not know christ, therfore they were not setting anything up as a city of god because they did not know christ
3. therefore, only succesful cities are republics, which are set up as cities of godly origin, and anyone who existed before christ are heathen pagans and are damned. pretty much.
this is much condensed and whatnot but that is the gist of what was discussed as being an okay philosophy. how fucking southern baptist does this sound? what about jews? arent they god's people? oh wait, i remember what happened to jews, the christians drove them out of every fucking place they went because they a) killed jesus and b) didnt believe what they believed. great. so stupid fuckheads have existed all over. if i am wrong in my reading please email, cos i do wanna understand shit, but if anyone can read city of god and come up with a different reading, go for it. as far as i can tell, it says that anyone not knowing christ is incapable of, basically, being a good person, despite whatever is done outside of that minor detail. all this coming from a religion that has started more wars and killed more people than anything else (in the name of...and all that jazz). fuck. intolerant people can fuck themselves. yes i am intolerant but only of stupid people, and also intolerant people. fuck. i know its a different time period and whatever but...jesus christ...thats a little far is it not?
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His Infernal Majesties

ive got brittany and laura for HIM! now i dont have to go alone, which is fucking awesome. on a stick. so yeah, plans are as follows...
10/15 sat GWAR me and geeze
10/22 sat Buckethead me and geeze and ben
10/27 thurs NIN (and queens of the stone age! fucking awesome!) me and geeze
11/02 wed HIM (and Skindred!) me and brittany and laura
11/04 fri CKY me and geeze
i have a sneaking suspicion that bam margera will be either at HIM CKY or both. this is due to his almost unnatural love of ville valo (id fuck him so what can i say...) or b/c his brother jess plays drums for CKY. or he could not be at either. i dont know if i should punch him or hug him. because yes he is a bastard, but...he does have good taste in music...sooo...
mmmm this semester will be fucking awesome....
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iPod

i like ipods, yes, but there are people on campus that piss me right the fuck off. the people who cant seem to be five minutes outside of class without cell phone or ipod in their ear. i understand not wanting to talk to people sometimes or while waiting for class, but 24 hour a day? i mean really, when i am pissed off, i prefer to talk to people, because it gets my mind off of my own fucked up emotions. when i am riding in the car, i like music. but there are maybe 3 or 4 people who i am never able to spot without a cell phone in their ear or an ipod in their ear. basically, its saying "i dont want to talk to anyone, because no one is as interesting as me, because i have an ipod. if you dont have one, then fuck you."
these people, when i have had class with them, always seem to be the people that argue stupid points and seem to waste class time anyway. if you find one, without a form of media jammed in their head, ask them why they have to be such an asshole to the world around them.
ps this isnt a rant against being antisocial, because i myself am antisocial, but i am at least available to people who might want to start some kind of conversation. i mean who knows, they could be interesting, right?
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Gaiman

mirrormask is the fucking shit! i loved that movie. i could really tell that gaiman wrote the script, as the dialogue had a flow that was distinctly gaiman. if i had the opportunity to see either mirrormask or serenity again, i would definetely rather see mirrormask. serenity, to me, just didnt seem as cool as the television series. it doesnt make sense to say that, but somethings are better in a television format and dont translate very well onto the "big screen", just as mirrormask would be a shitty television series. theres far too much back story for serenity to be a movie, and theres not enough story for mirrormask to be a miniseries. i still need to see corpsebride, so im waiting to make my comments about that. tim burton is soo fucking awesome.
also in two weeks, for the two weeks following, i will be a happy zack: three concerts coming up. alls i need are tickets for HIM and CKY.
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Decemberists

man decemberists are fucking awesome! the drummer, for mariners revenge song, had a single drum with wheels on it and when he had to play, he beat the shit outta the head with a mallet and whacked the side with a tambourine for another effect. i wouldnt think to do that if i were the decemberists drummer. after they played their songs and encores, they went into self-destruct mode and destroyed their shit. the bassist flipped the standup around, while on his back, supported it on his knees and played it backwards before chucking it off him. the guitarist just threw this rickenbacker twelve-string, a hollowbody guitar with a concave back, on the ground, smashing the back out and causing enormous amounts of feedback. the drummer, while the singer demolished the drumkit, had a snare he was beating the fuck out of until he popped the head through with the drumstick. he then held the drum up by the stick in the head and threw it on the stage. he pushed over the lapsteel, and spazzed out on the floor until the guitarist and bassist picked him up by hands and feet, heave-hoing him to the crowd where he crowdsurfed. normally im not much for people ruining their instruments, but being in the mood that i was in the past week, this display of "autodestructionist art" was fucking awesome. i could definetely see how people would be into it every now and then.
what else is cool? what else is cool? hmmm, ben is an amazing magnet for picking up girls. he randomly talks to some, who hang out with us all of the show, and probably would have gone back to his place where "..." might occur if it were roleplaying. i should hang out with ben at concerts more often, getting laid by proxy.
i have tickets to see GWAR, Buckethead, and NIN. thats the extent of awesome on this front.
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