Sunday, January 29, 2006

Because Adam Smith Is Boring


i am already ready to be on break again. at least then i would be able to just play music all the time, not have to worry about asking parents for moneys and just generally chilling with friends. i wish that i could just chill with friends twenty-four/seven. also i wish my secret would break through, cos really, ive just been wandering around with thoughts and shiznits, wandering around, and just generally feeling shittier and shittier until i can force myself to speak it aloud. so far ive been pushed to the breaking point only once, and that was a slip-up. well, here's hoping that everything turns out for the best...
z out

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Something Else

i wish something would happen soon. waiting and pondering these things is insane, its keeping me anxious, which i normally am already, and makes me wanna drink and smoke and just generally not do anything that requires my attention.
by the way, todays forecast is pissed off with a little frustration on the edges...
z out

Monday, January 23, 2006

Noises Keep Me Awake

i fucking hate it when there are unnecessary noises and shit while i am trying to go to sleep. do i play music loudly when everyone tries to go to sleep? no. do i talk on the phone, keepinh everyone awake for hours and hours? no. should i from now on, considering that i have insomnia, making me tolerable to long amounts of no sleep? i think fucking so. i am so pissed off right now its not even funny. man i feel like i need a cigarette or something to calm me down. fuck. also, the thing that was bothering me before, the "i have a secret", at least the first part of it, has gone away, making me not care about things. the part of the secret that was discussed in certain car rides, however, is still in full effect.
also, listening to mars volta's ScabDates makes me want to break shit with a baseball bat, mainly omar rodrigues' face. the pretentious, "what wierd sounds i'm making" shit is just annoying. its not groundbreaking if avant-garde/psychadelic bands in the 60s like pink floyd, capt beefheart, and various and sundry english mod bands did it, its just being a goddamn copycat, too unoriginal to try something that doesnt make me wanna hit you with a blunt object. props to the drummer for them tho, also bass player.
z out

Tuesday, January 17, 2006

I Fucking Hate The Po-Lice

so i got a ticket tonite. stu was there he saw the thing. basically i have to come up with 160$ or go to court, contesting it. this means the judge throws the ticket out and the cop says, there was a passenger in the car and the roads were wet, meaning that i can be charged with not only going 20 over, but also with reckless driving and also reckless endangerment. i am slightly perplexed, because not only did he not give me a readout after i requested an accuracy check, but he also didnt not ask for either my registration or my proof of insurance. im hoping that the insurance wont show up, but i have a feeling that its all connected and the insurance will find out eventually. man i didnt need this shit on top of not having much money. fuck the police...
z out

Friday, January 13, 2006

Zombie Upgrades


my bro and i were watching Dracula (love that movie...all the gothiness...plus vampires are shmexy) and he said that zombies woudnt be that tough to get around cos thy were slow. i then say yeah the romero style zombies wouldnt be. he then said yeah but the zombies that come out now are all fast and they are better, so yeah they would be hard to get around. the image then popped into my head of zombies as a consumer product, like a car or a computer, each generation becoming faster and faster. then the idea for a story element came into my head. imagine a future where (extremely poor, urban decay style future) people are paid large upfront amounts of cash and are then used basically as external hard drives, to keep hackers and such from coming into contact with company (business) secrets. the catch is that to do this, and to keep them from turning coat, the people have their entire brain wiped, becoming a human vegetable, a "zombie" so to speak, but not the flesh eating kind. they then have to be led around on like a leash or some such thing, being accessed by specific dna codes that are then fed back into the brain as passcodes to the information and such. maybe the original code is wiped and changed, resulting in the memory loss, and the original code is also the passcode that must be accepted before any such info can be taken from the person used as a hard drive.
i know it sounds kind of like something that dietz would come up with in one of his stories, but fuck him, i like the idea. anyone else? or maybe im just kinda fucked up in looking at people as bits of hardware for a technologically advanced future. maybe cyberpunkish. sound like a good idea?
z out

Flogging The Bishop

so...anyone got any wierd masturbation stories? they dont even have to be real if it makes you feel better about not masturbating...but i will still think about it the wierder it is. i ll tell one, then you guys can go.
one time i was masturbating and i was stopping myself right before i came, maybe two or three times before i "let it go" so to speak. the particular way i had myself positioned i came and i wasnt watching...eyes closed, maybe caught up in the moment or whatever, anyway, the point is i didnt see anything...and i noticed that i couldnt find my leavings or whatever. so i started looking around, and it didnt occur to me that when you did what i had been doing before i came that it built up pressure or whatever. apparently i shot over my head and hit the wall behind me, which meant instead of the situation being remedied with tissues, it had to be remedied with a wet paper towel. so yeah, experiment on this at home. also leave you own masturbation stories in the comments wall, or i will feel rather silly for starting this line of conversation...
z out

Thursday, January 12, 2006

Stupid Shits

what about downloading massive amounts of music makes a person believe that just because they listen to a person, they can make stupid claims like "john mayer trio: finally a real blues record"? personally, i would say that jack white is a better blues player, and also more in touch with his "roots" or whatever you wanna call them. white actually draws from musicians like charley patton, son house, and even though every blues player says this, robert johnson. as far as i can tell, mayer reachs as far back as eric clapton. not that clapton isnt a good blues player or enthusiast, but he plays more "standard" or "acessible" pieces. even when trying to not be a pop star, mayer goes for a more popular lening, as far as i can tell. if there is any evidence of him reaching back further than englishmen in the sixties for his influences, then i apologise, as this post would make no sense.
now, as far as franz ferdinand is concerned, trying a different approach or style in their music is something i applaud artists to do. just because one person with a computer doesnt understand it, doesnt make the effort a bad one. listening to the two albums the have released, i would say that they tried something different, and they didnt fail, as the album is different, they just didnt succeed as wel as their original, though sales say differently. shifting from "european funk-pop" (to use pretentious labels) to "art-pop" is quite a jump. in fact the second album is just as listenable and enjoyable as the first, if you ignore the fact that you are listening to franz ferdinand. the second album is just not their sound, and maybe they should try something different. but it is asinine, to me, to damn franz ferdinand for their effort and applaud the white sripesfor theirs. both artists have done the same thing...one was just a further step than the other. white, as i said earlier, is heavily influenced by, specifically, delta blues musicians, so it would make perfect sense to go from southern blues to southern folk music. see? same thing, but franz ferdinand just went a little further, and didnt succeed as well, in my opinion, but then again, i am just another music listener with a computer; this does not make me right, just stating an opinion. but, look at blak rebel motorcycle clubs latest release, howl. it isnt my favorite release of theirs, as they seem to have gone from those loveable shoegazers i liked and evolved into a band following in jack whites footsteps. however, the albums came out around the same time, despite brmc working on it longer than the white stripes. they almost lost their drummer to a serious drinking and drug problem. in fact he only played on one track, showing up six weeks before it was to be remixed and mastered. i like what they have accomplished in this album, though a few of the tracks are skippable. but it doesnt mean it should be written off as bad and a horrible choice for a divergence, just an experiment with a different approach. actually not having a drummer could havecontributed to the fact that it is mainly crafted around guitar and organ rather than as a rock band making music with guitar, bass, and drums.
now, i admit, i like sigor ros when i just wanna relax and not think about lyrics or musical things, but honestly, they did not release one of the greatest albums this year. i can stick a mic in a tree somewhere and then lay down a vocal track where i moan into a mic in gibberish. not saying icelandic languages are gibberish, but have of the tracks on ( ) were half icelandic and half made up, sometimes in the same track name. seriously, these guys are good at making me relax, but not the best at making actual music. they are as good at making calm as sonic youth is at making noise. also they are good if you want to make two whales mate...
sufjan stevens' latest release, in my opinion, is better composed and more listenable than his release, michigan. that is all i can actually say about it, as he shows no signs of stopping the good composition, but then again we still have 48 albums from him in his 50 states project, so we ll see where that goes...
also fuck you, the strokes' latest release isnt as good as their first, considerably better than their last, but better put together than anything they have released so far. also the songwriting has improved greatly, and their craftsmanship of their songs have gotten better. whats the matter, cant take a little darkness with you pop-rock?
also if you are just finding out about radiohead or massive attack, welcome to 1997! next youll just have to hear oasis! oh and blind melon as well! they are teh azzkickz00rs!
as ive written this post, i seem to have gotten progressively more and more belligerent, but i cant help but feel some anger when people listen to "indie" music, seemingly for the purpose of flexing their snobbery muscles, then dismiss certain artists, the ones that more people listen to, as boring and bad, and then praising bands that fewer people listen to, but doing that for the same reason. i mean, cmon, sigur ros arent musicians. i would call them artists that happen to use instruments as their paint, but they are music...thats like saying clap your hands say yeah! are masters of melody and have deep lyrics. not to be contradictory, as i find that most artists have some redeeming quality in the music they make, but ome just dont make actual music, if you define music as the common goal of all musicians in a certain song. as far as i can tell, sigur ros are the artists painting a soundscape, sonic youth are the rebels making a cohesive unit of noise disguised as a soundscape, and clap your hands say yeah! are just people handed instruments and computer loops who decided to bang on shit and see how many people they could sucker into believing that they are making a "movement" in music. as far as i can tell, theyve tricked the indie-fucks and the bohemians, but theyll never trick me...fuck em.
actually this post has taken a turn for the worst, so i will just stop here. feel free to post comments and tell me what a fucker i am or agree or whatever. i dont care. just understand that i only post this because i love music and hate it when people just look at a release of an artist as a single thing, without looking at what may have given them inspiration for what they attempted, their influences or any number of different factors that contribute to the sound of an album. its because of this that usually wait until the artists second release before i pass judgment or whatever on them, but clap your hands say yeah! are just fucking bad. also death cab for cutie. i will forgive them for the postal service though, just as i will forgive them for producing the decemberists and, as far as i can tell, driving them to sign with a major label. remember, a band isnt indie anymore when they sign to a major label (cough capitol cough), as both death cab and the decemberists have done. i guess i will just have to forgive the decemberists and damn death cab.
z out
(note the sarcasm)

Wednesday, January 11, 2006

I Cant' Wait To Be Home...

ive had no sleep in 2 days! wheeee! my eyes are fuzzy and the images are seperated by a gap in time before they reach my brain and make any sense. does that even make sense? i tried rereading that but i kept getting stuck and confused at the way images is spelled. bens video thing is pretty fucking hilarious...
mmm i think ill be back on sunday maybe...thatll be good. maybe saturday...yeah...
z out

Wednesday, January 04, 2006

I'm A Sad Panda

i would just like it to be noted that i miss everyone in the atl very much...i wish i could stay year-round...i dont know why it feels as though i should say this, it just does...
i also feel like a real shit as well, meaning i have some mad talking skills to increase when i get back...
z out

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

Don't Really Have A Topic


so yeah, im pretty much bored right now, meaning that i can either go to sleep (eeeww) or i can add to the blogosphere in my own little way. i have been reading since around midnight, from the new terry goodkind book, Chainfire, and its pretty interesting. ive read like three hundred pages without stopping; i cant remember the last time i did that in one sitting, or even havin the time to do that in one sitting. i havent played any music in like three days. this sucks. well, more musical opportunities will present themselves in the coming semester, heres hoping, so theres no worries there yet. i do need to procure a job this next semester for reals for reals. i need to actually have some job experience...
i have finished like two books since i have been home. i finished the tim powers book ben got me for christmhanustolstikwanzikah, and then i finished stepehn king's on writing. im about to finish an 800 page fantasy novel, and then start an anthology of vampire stories (anne rice). on top of this i have perused the photo collection of nickolas zinner called i hope you are all happy now. it was pretty interesting...hes the guitar player for yeah yeah yeahs, bright eyes, and blood brothers. he apparently took a camera along and took random picture of his lifestyle on the road, so theres like two sections of audience members, a section of places hes been, a section on wounds sustained on tour (not good for the drummers pictured), and a couple more sections that illustrate his life on the road as a musician. all in all its a pretty interesting book. theres a couple of essays included from outside people, an extensive (and sometimes boring) interview of him included in all this, and a few other little random interesting things. the picture at the start of the post is YYY and their openers The Jays waiting in a Nagoya Train Station.
i wish now that i had taken a digital photography class while it was being offered at oglethorpe. seeing all those lovely pictures of structured chaos (oh noes! i sound like someone on livejournal!) make me wish i had experimented some, as i try to leave a class open every semester for one experimental class, a "just for the fuck of it" style course. but then again, i wasted that this semester on having no class.
well, im gonna peruse wikipedia now...oh noes! no sleep in sight!
z out

Monday, January 02, 2006

Maybe I'm a Sucker For Blogspot, But...

i was perusing the livejournals of peopple in links pages of certain friends, and the people who have livejournal seem to be sucker bitches. all poetry and angst and philosophical bullshit. y'know what? it pisses me off. it doesnt make me think, and wonder and say "hey, that guy that does that, he sure is stupid". isnt that the point of a philosophical statement? to draw attention to something perplexing and analyze it and wonder what the ramifications of it are? really the postings make me wanna smack the stupid outta some wack-ass bitches.
maybe its me being stuck here, maybe its me being angrimified easily, and maybe its just the majority of livejournal users make me wanna break some shit. ben? up for some breaking of shit? also talking and walking...real trouble with certain things. also laura, we need to talk. also, brittany, we need ta hang more, if you catch my drift...i keep dreaming of lucille and bernice, for some strange reason. also i need head pettings...where oh where could these head pettings come from? where...
anyway, its raining, its 6 am, and i feel the urge to play music, but i dont have any silent instruments to play. i guess i'll check out GarageBand on my computer and see how it works...
z out