St. Patty's Day, or: Drunkomancer's Minor Charges Day

so yeah i plan to be fucked up all day on friday...that means i will start drinking around ten...continue drinking for creative writing and...continue until the wee hours of the mornin'. this day will be an excellent day indeed....
z out

"I've Got A Bad Feeling About This..."

i cant explain it, but i have a sinking feeling thts in the pit of mine stomach...that is all...
z out

Stu's Demand

he says i should post more often. you bitches.
also that he is: awesomely awesome. he could crush a baby with his penis. he once fought a bear, a full grown bear, and fucked its mouth with his fists of doom. jumped out of a plane with no parachute, playing bass, while fucking bens mom in the rocess and lived to tell about it. well he had mild concussions. also he fucked chuck norris in his mouth that lovely bearded mouth so all those chuck norris jokes should fucking die, because really they are for bitches and suckers. and hos. lovely lovely hos.
also he says hello...
z out

Hardcore

listen to this line from american psycho:

Last night i had dreams that were lit lke pornography and in them i fucked girls made of cardboard.

while not "good" or "classic", i wish i could write things like that...fucking awesome descriptions and imagery. when i read that line i almost shit myself...fucking awesome.
thats all. im now done orgasming over bret easton ellis.
z out

I Could Have Killed

so yeah. last night i was in a car accident. i was turning and a car came around a bend, over a hill and demolished my passenger side. if anyone was riding with me they would have been killed...if not then seriously injured. if it had hit me on the other side i would have been killed or seriously injured. if it had hit me head on, rather than at the side, i would have been killed or seriously injured, as the truck was an avalanche and the bottom of the front was at least equal to halfway up my hood. im just glad that no one was with me. if i got hurt it would have been my own damn fault. if anyone was with me i dont know what i would have done to make recompense.
i feel so detached and numb now that nothing, save a couple things, can cheer me up. drinking just makes me more likely to talk about things that i shouldnt and act like an asshole...several times at anime club tonight i almost jumped and started beating shits out of peoples. drinking inn my angered state can do no good. i went to the quad last night and screamed for like 20 minutes...made me feel better.
also my entire music library of 12000 songs got deleted in the process of conversion to mp3 format. now i have 413 songs. suck
also this is my 100th post.
also...well nevermind.
i just wanna drink and smoke and enter a self-destructive cycle...but i cant...ive made a promise. and what goods a promise if you dont keep it.
i know this post is whiny. wah wah wah...
fuck you i have the right to be pissed.
any asshole comments can fuck themselves...im not in the mood to read it. i feel like some destruction is in order but i know thats just the anger and frustruation talking...not the real zack...i hope not at least...
z out

The Foo

i think that the song everlong is a good way to kind of sum up everything. ive had this song in my head for the last couple of days so it kind of makes sense, at least to me...
z out

Timewarp

i feel like everything thats been happening since friday has been like weeks. i feel that, especially today, everything that is a few hours apart has been a day. i dont know what it is...it scares me. i feel like i cant control the future and i hate not knowing whats going on. i also hate not being able to control my own emotions. wah wah wah, wah wah wah.
z out