Thursday, September 28, 2006

Passion

when choosing a film that has had an impact on culture, someone in my group says lets not do Passion of the Christ. i say i agree, that i dont like it and that its fucking retarded, as well as not historically accurate. another girl asks what basis i have for saying its not accurate. i say well, ive taken a religion course or two and that ive studied ancient history. she says okay, asks what religion i am. i shrug and say pick a god. she then rants at me saying that she is not comfortable with me giving opinion and disguising as fact.

first off, i think she misinterpreted my shrug and response to mean that im atheist. thats not the case. i said pick a god. i have my own set of beliefs, they just dont fit with organised religion.

second, since when is "i dont like it", and "fucking retarded" a fact?

third, its not historically accurate, its propoganda.

we argue for a time, she gets more and more upset. i then ask if she would relent that its not canon; as in, that it isnt sanctioned by any holy or divine or religious authority. she says yes. i then say, based on mel gibson's desire to make a historically accurate movie, would she then say that he has affirmed that. she says yes.

last time i checked, showing the devil tempt judas in the garden and showing satan scream when christ dies isnt historically accurate. it may be argued that its "theologically accurate" is you so chose to do that, but its far from being historically accurate. second we dont know the relations between any of the characters other than from the Bible, which isnt necessarily the most trustworthy source of information by itself. therefore, if a movie does not meet a directors criteria or mission he set out to meet, then would that in fact, say that it is a bad movie?

fucking people. i just dont understand. she ended the arguement by saying i just dont think you should be saying things like that that are based on beliefs. i thought that i was stating facts disguised as beliefs and that was her main arguement? that i shoulndt do that, now i cant do that because it steps on her toes, faith-wise.

her arguements step on my toes faith-wise as well. why am i not supposed to say anything cos she doesnt agree with it based in her religion when she is able to wave her beliefs in my face? what makes her arguement more valid, when mine also has elements in my faith?

i just dont understand why i cant say something and she is able to rub in my face, constantly, what she believes in, while i cant make a statement based on my own.

fucking people. maybe im just bitter and unnecessarily angry. on top of it, i think she may report me to bohart as using misinformation or somesuch thing. i dont fucking care anymore either is the damndest thing. i feel justified in what i said, just as she must feel justified.

anyway, thats all. im just fucking angry and pissed. altho i am happy to have argued my way out of her arguement. i mean fuck, just cos youre a freshman and mommy and daddy and pastor bill have taught you something, doesnt mean its right. maybe she should try thinking a little rather than accepting everything fed to her.

fuck.

z out

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

Bands

check these guys out...

song stuck in my head:
u2 starring johnny cash - the wanderer

z out

Sucking My Life!

episodes of entourage have been taking my time...ben is awesome at stealing tv shows and giving them to me.

i may or may not pass that math exam tomorrow. i hate math. i am going to compile formulas together for the studying, but i may or may not actually do that.

i hope i get a car this weekedn. i needs one so bad...

z out

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

Ar' Bru'...To' o' th' Po's...

so yeah went and saw art brut play last night. they are awesome and fuck you if you think otherwise. the drummer played standing. balanced on one leg and standing. fucking awesome. i kinda wanna try that now...also apparently icant use cymbals in any band im in with ben...it would just ruin the sound, whatever that sound might be...(yes i know the velvet underground did this. the fundamental difference tho, is that i have a penis...mo tucker does not)

the opener, we are scientists, were also pretty cool. drummer played interestingly...one cymbal...mainly he played relly syncopated stuff, and you know me and my love of syncopation...

also, speaking of indie bands apparently we have a lineup:
vocals: ben and anna
guitar: ben and paul (my roomate)
bass: stu
drums: me

more to come as we find people that we can stand and ask them to join. i have no idea if this will actually sound, you know, "good" or even "tasteful" but it should be fun.

umm...feeling tired, depressed, all that stuff...

im writing again...i hope to finish a really long piece...im basically stealing conversations and interactions and placing them randomly in some of the scenes, but i do have an opening scen that i think is fucking awesome. too long to post, but maybe sometime ill link to it somewhere...

umm...

z out

Monday, September 18, 2006

Crazy

so Hildegard Von Bingen was born and sent as a tithe to the church and once established in the church, was moved to the monastery at Disenbodenberg. while there, she began feeling as if the divine spirit was talking thru her, casuing her to compose long vitae to god, and she also painted, viewed herself as a prophet, mainly composing and contributing to god thru song and paint.

going thru this in class, the professor offhandedly mentions that she was also accused of being on drugs when she composed and painted (her paintings do look like they were constructed while on a major hallucinogen). he also says that basically thats bullshit...

this, of course, prompts me to go research her further. the monastery that she was at, however, never successfully developed a village around it, which is "a shame" because its such a beautiful area. the reson for this is that every family scavenging for food around this spot went "crazy". guess what grows around the monastery.

DMT. a strong hallucinogen, schedule 1 drug in the US. this is the drug that can easily be eaten as it grows in forests, near rivers, and generally anywhere thats pretty. this is also the drug that grows in/near salem. remember the witch trials?

apparently "bad trips" result in the same visions for everyone, or at least with variations that are insignificant. they include: black shapes, catlike, "witches" on broomstick, terror, fear, and paranoia.

"good trips" however, result in ecstatic revelation, megalomania, prophetic feelings (feeling as if you know whats going to happen, teleological visions, whatnot), profound time-dilation, visual and audio hallucinations, and other experiences that, by most first hand accounts, defy verbal or visual description. Some users report intense erotic imagery and sensations and utilize the drug in a ritual sexual context.

"Professor Alan Watts described the effects of DMT as "Load universe into cannon. Aim at brain. Fire."" (wikipedia)

i find that interesting...

z out

Mmm Random

more and more i wanna just get rid of all my hair and start over, hoping that vitamins make my hair grow...

also a quote:
"...he was, by vocation a voluptuary concerned only with the ravishing and destruction of the fair sex...in the secrecy of his own thought...his mission of debauchery..."(At Swim-Two Birds, pg 49-50)

that describes a couple of friends of mine...

also i found out today that a paper for core has been moved to being due next monday. as opposed to this wednesday. a paper i didnt know about. you can understand my happiness. also disapointment...

also i should email dr smith...

z out

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

Qotsa-No One Knows (Acoustic)



josh homme has such a sexy voice...i wish i sounded like that when i sang...also when i play guitar...

z out

Qotsa and Will Ferrell-Little Sister



man i forgot that josh homme is such a big motherfucker...

for comparison, troy van leewuen (the guy to homme's right and in the middle; also in the suit) is an inch taller than me...

z out

Sarcasm

so i dont understand that when i say something sarcastic, i am being "mean" and that person will then tell my girlfriend...i mean what the fuck? i can afterwards listen to what she says because i agree with it and understand or ignore her and continue acting how i did before cos i dont...really i think my girlfriend is awesome with sarcasm, especially if ive been having a bad day...

besides i fail to see how girlfriend=mother...if you have a problem with me maybe you should then retaliate to me? i mean it doesnt take a lot of work to learn sarcasm...oh im sorry, dramatic irony...

in other news i have a hundred friends in facebook...


z out

Fuck That Shit

i am so glad that fall is coming...i like it when i can wear pants! as most of you know, i love being pantsless but i also like being able to wear pants. if youre gonna wear pants wear pants, then wear pants, dont dick around with shorts...

also i like random conversations about skanky girls and cocaine...mm-mmm...i guess when youre doing 20 lines of cocaine, then infidelity isnt your biggest concern? /shrug...

also, what the fuck? why tell him you know? this can be so much fun later...like when you havta catch him and he just lies himself into a corner...hilarimous...

z out

Hot IQs-Firecracker



thanks to ben for this. i loves me some girl drummers...and shes better than meg...

z out

Monday, September 11, 2006

That's Bollshit

fucking fire alarms. they keep me from sleep. also a quiz...


See what drug you are.




See what drug you are.



wtf? i got 2 simultaneously...

z out

Saturday, September 09, 2006

The Fall is [in].

as i went to annas car today i noticed something on her car, yellow and dying. a leaf. falling leaves means...its fall! hooray! no more shorts!

also today i noted that my musical tastes change baed on the season...

fall=sad bastard music, introspective music (interpol, bob dylan, etc.)

spring=electronica, techno, random music (tv on the radio, lords of acid, etc.)

summer=blues, hard rock, metal-ish (system of a down, soulfly, cream, etc.)

the only things i listen to that i can always listen to:

led zeppelin
queens of the stone age
dresden dolls
she wants revenge
nine inch nails

also anything cabaret like. i really like the sound of pretentious vaudevillian vintage music. also robot rock.

z out

Friday, September 08, 2006

Hamstring In Your Ass

so i was thinking:

is it possible for your colon/anus/rectum/sphincter to be pulled? i mean they are technically musckles...

my guess is no since they are tensed all of the time and are only flexed/released when taking a shit...

homework for today is to try and get your sphincter muscle pulled...also if you dont believe me about the tensing all the time thing, walk around today with a calf or an arm flexed/tensed...my guess is you wont be able to do it...

z out

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Death Threats and Anonymous Whores

i wish that every son of a bitch that i knew and hated would let me have the reins of their lifeline. that way when i saw them coming i could snip it off and a mother fucker would hit the ground at my feet.

i would mainly use this during the time of my bi-semesterly depression, which i am in the middle of right now.

also on stupid fucks that get their fucko liquid on my books and notes in core. i agree wholeheartedly on a core for business majors. i have some stupid fucks in my class right now that were in my class last semester. goddamn i hate basketball players and business majors.

also smartasses. thats up to me fuckheads.

also, ben...

go fuck yourself.

thank you,

z out

Her Daddy Gave Her Magic I Can Tell By The Way She Walks

the who-eyesight to the blind (the hawker)
the beatles-norwegian wood (this bird has flown)
elton john-circle of life
qotsa-monsters in the parasol
foo fighters-my hero
foo fighters-everlong

z out

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

In My Head

led zeppelin-nobody's fault but mine
yyy-date with the night
soad-thetawaves
qotsa-give the mule what he wants
death from above1979-cold war
dresden dolls-delilah

at the variety playhouse:
oct 9 monday 8pm Buckethead $15
oct 24 tuesday 8.30pm Dresden Dolls $20
nov 10 friday 8.30pm Black Keys $20

at the tabernacle:
oct 14 yeah yeah yeahs $26

anyone savvy?

z out

Death From Above 1979-Black History Month (Josh Homme Mix)



i like this remix of the song better actually. also i like that this is just an indie video as opposed to one sanctioned by the band...

z out

Death From Above 1979-Black History Month



two things:
1) fucking awesome mohawk on the drummer/singer (makes me want one but alas, i have little hair. maybe if i shaved head then let mohawk grow in? sigh...)

2) i now wanna start a band that is two pianist/keyboardists that sing, drums, maybe guitar, maybe clarinet/sax/trombone...doesnt mean ill do it, but it would still probably sound okay at least...


z out

Monday, September 04, 2006

D*C

dc was good this year...lots of good things, a few bad things but mainly everything was cool. drinking like i did may have caused brain damage...i feel like im lagging...

the best part of the weekend was having the girl surprise me and show up at my dorm. spending the weekend at the con with my girlfriend was good. a very excellent time indeed...i just need ta have monies saved up next year...achella looks interesting.

i am sick, tho, so...

dunno if i will have monies to see dresden dolls or yeah yeah yeahs, but damn if i dont want to...see the dresden dolls at least...i need ta see them...

speaking of that i am getting more and more in to the whole new wave cabaret thing, dark cabaret, stuff like that.

i am goin ta bed now i think...

z out