Songs That Are In My Head and That Everyone Reading Should Download

radiohead - no surprises
radiohead - lucky
queens of the stone age - in my head
queens of the stone age - i was a teenage hand model
white stripes - in the cold cold night
u2 - dirty day
michael pitt - hey joe
bob dylan - house of the rising sun ( NOT the animals version)
bob dylan - tangled up in blue
damon alabarn - closet romantic
blur - song 2
damien rice - the blower's daughter
electric six - naked pictures (of your mother)
electric six - vibrator
kyuss - un sandpiper

have fun lovelies...

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50 some odd hours and counting...

thats how long its been since i slept. i feel like im going crazy...my skin feels like its moving, i feel loopy, i just got done hyperventilating to the point that i threw up lunch (and therefore a vitamin and a b-12 complex) (there goes $5.35), i may have in fact broken my finger by shutting it in the door of my car, i ran onto the curb and scraped up the undercarriage of my car, i feel shitty for other reasons, i need to get 4 weeks worth of listening assignments done, an evaluation and a listening assignment done, a music midterm done, study for an exam on friday, write a paper for next thursday, write another for the following tuesday, do three hundred pages of reading, and on top of all this bohart has asked me and anotehr student to prepare something for the symposium, which will also add stuff to my list. i feel like im on the verge of a nervous breakdown, and all i can do is curl into a ball on my bed and shake. not sleep, even though i want to desperately, but just sit and stare. insomnia is killing me and i want to be done with everything. i just wish that i could move on in my life and not worry about all this bullshit...
also i think i may have hurt someone important in my life (the only person i really love or care about) and i wish i could take back everything ive done thats been malicious or passive-aggressive toward her.
when will a break get here?

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cramps v. anxiety

this sucks...i am anxious and i cant sleep and i cant talk cos im a fucking bother and a nuisance and i repeat myself. this fucking sucks...
my stomach is in knots and that bottle of whiskey in the fridge is looking mighty good at letting me go to sleep. i just keep fidgeting and shaking and tossing and turning. i was feeling depressed, but now i feel even shittier and i have a feeling in a couple of hours, i will feel shitty even more on top of that. everything sucks and i dont know how i can fix it; all i do is cause problems and i dont help anything. maybe im shit. i feel like an asshole more and more and i dont like doing it. i feel like a waste of space and that everything i touch turns to shit.
otherwise im fucking peachy...
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The Post for February 11 2007

b/c blogger was a bitch i couldnt post this yesterday...

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Hilarimous

what if nora ephron directed the shining?

have you ever seen "scary mary"?

have you ever been so tired that...

have fun

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Electric Six "Radio Ga Ga"

fuck yes

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