Hair Loss E Maximo

goddamn. cant sleep. dont wanna brush teeth, but must. dont like shaving, but must. is much cooler in summer. talking like caveman more fun than with grammar. fuck you.

no seriously i cant sleep. it sucks. i looked up depression on wikipedia. some minor counts of it include:

• A decrease in self-esteem. yes
  
• Inattention to personal hygiene. yes
  
• Sensitivity to noise.
  
• Physical aches and pains, and the belief these may be signs of serious illness.
• Fear of 'going mad'. yes
  
• Change in perception of time. yes
  

check and check... and the ones that i have to fill five symptoms to fufill the dsm-iv's definition:

• Feelings of overwhelming sadness or fear. yes
• A decrease in the amount of interest or pleasure in all, or almost all, activities of the day, nearly every day. yes
  
• Changing appetite and marked weight gain or loss. yes
  
• Disturbed sleep patterns, such as insomnia, loss of REM sleep, or excessive sleep (Hypersomnia). yes
  
• Psychomotor agitation or retardation nearly everyday.
• Fatigue, mental or physical, also loss of energy. yes
  
• Feelings of guilt, helplessness, hopelessness, anxiety, or fear. yes
  
• Trouble concentrating or making decisions or a generalized slowing and obtunding of cognition, including memory. yes
  
• recurrent thoughts of death (not just fear of dying), recurrent suicidal ideation without a specific plan, or a suicide attempt or a specific plan for committing suicide.

so that puts the count at four minor and seven major? damn...sitting around watching music videos and surfing the web isnt helping either, im fairly certain.
(on a tangent, goddamn def leppard for naming their new album "yeah!". also, goddamn def leppard. fuck 'em in their stupid asses, with their one-armed drummer. maybe im bitter...)

im tired but i cant stop thinking. i cant focus on things enough to reach a conclusion. insomnia is returning...even though there isnt a good reason for it to happen. i have everything i want, except a source of income.

i do have what was giving me the insomnia last fall, i got the girl i was crushing on and indecisive concerning what to do about the situation. i just dont have her here...

z out